A handful of thoughts

• Imagining the emptiness and pain when I will have to give up somebody in order to fulfil something. Dream or Lover?
• Wondering if I am losing my child-like perspective, and therefore, my youth and the heart and spirit that give it strength
• Am I too self-absorbed and do I deserve what I am getting in life?
• Collars and cut and clothes and fabric
• Sleep deprivation
• The warmth I feel when he is with me
• Am I taking too much for granted?
• Money problems
• Getting rid of my spare tyre
• Getting down to doing all that craftwork, drawing, painting, and etc. stuff that I've put aside for the longest time
• How the heck am I supposed to break out of this cycle???